It is more than a month now when we left our home in Portland and set out to relocate to India. The first month was planned to be spent with family before we could finally settle down in Pune. That vacation is about to end now. The time has come for me to make the move to Pune and I'm bamboozled!
Let me think. When was the last time I cared about the '14 letter' word 'res-pon-sibi-lity'? It is a big word and has a de-ee-p meaning. I'm sure most of the wives I know will agree. For me it meant to wake up first in the house (by the clock) and secretly envy the hubby dear in deep sleep (add sweet dreams and occasional snores). It meant having to convince myself that if I don't get up 'now' (after snoozing the alarm by 30 minutes), I would be responsible to see my day fall apart with a domino effect. It meant making the morning tea, planning and preparing the 3-4 meals of the day, laundry, dishes, baby, grocery....Ouch! just the thought of all that hurts.
The past one month spent with family has been such a lazy-lavish stretch. Oh look! here comes mom with my morning 'bed' tea. See this is was what I'm talking about. I need not say anymore. I have been spoiled. Every time I think about a daily chore, chances are that it has been already taken care by parents. I have been inactive. There is so much stuff that I wished to write about. What I have been feeling all this time? About settling down in India to a different and lesser comfortable life compared to US, or the sadly poor conditions of the villages that we passed through visiting a few places, or my new year resolutions or my daughter turning two. Every time my strong urge to type my thoughts was slashed out by my stronger desire to just snuggle inside the thick 'Rajais' and induldge in food, gossip or watching soap operas.
There are regrets I confess but its not worthwhile to reason with them. There is so much to look forward from next week - a new place, a new life and lots of 'responsibilities'. Also, I've come with an explanation for the past few days. Animals do it. Computers too. I was hibernating.
